The most striking difference between David and Olstein, I think, made the night most magical. Poetry is a celebration - Olstein's selections, of nature, and David's of culture. As a spectator, of any performance, I look for joy. I was at the first show of the Pixies' reunion tour in 2006. It was a summer night in Atlanta, hot, muggy as hell, and when they took the stage - all of them grinning ear to ear - it just started pouring. It was this perfect moment. Everybody there was completely elated. That's what I felt at their reading. Both of them completely enamored of life.
This was the first I'd ever heard of David but I will most certainly explore his work. I loved the way he wove cultural relics into his own experience. As for Olstein, I was most struck by the veneration with which she vocalized her work. The tie that binds them is this innate thing - this internal voice that compels beautiful creation.
I think poetry is an inclination, confessional, and impossible to successfully contrive. Both readers embody that idea. They both seemed a little uncomfortable with the idea of an particular process. They love poetry. They read. They listen. It just comes from them. When it works, it's awestriking.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Autonomous - A Poetic Contemplation
“Autonomous”
Autonomous: Uh-taw-no-mus.
Autonomous, there is no us! Only me!
Autonomous: Well, really, it depends what you’re going for, you see.
Autonomous, I’ve got it better. Without "us" I’m single, free.
Autonomous: Come on. You’ve got to be kidding, Autonomy. We’re one and the same. Don't you agree? Form is merely a formality.
*Notes on Adjective Exercise
This was inspired, loosely, by Darwish. Though infrequently, he used textuality in a way that reminded me of e.e. cummings. In cummings’ “la”, the spatial allocation of the words is important and the written poem is more complex than its spoken counterpart. For my poem, the scripted dialogue enabled me to begin each line with the adjective, as either speaker, or addressee.
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
on Er
Most immediately striking about Er is her relationship with nature. She speaks to her reader as an ambassador, in a sense, as a mother might explain a father's actions to their children. She and nature are old friends, but she never interpolates herself into the text. She is merely a voice, and though humans and nature are one and the same, she is careful, conscious of her place, of who is speaking and, so, her function. She has an imperative tone but a humility one cannot deny. The only agent here is nature. She just has a better seat. She transcribes the language of nature onto the page as she is compelled. The text flows in whichever direction nature intends.
I've never really considered myself a poet. I'm more of a Hemingway, tip of the iceberg, kind of girl. This requires trust, on the writer's part of his/her own effectivity, and of the reader's competence to "get it". Er does not seem to care if anyone "gets it". Hers is a different mission. Nature speaks for itself - Er just writes what she hears.
I've never really considered myself a poet. I'm more of a Hemingway, tip of the iceberg, kind of girl. This requires trust, on the writer's part of his/her own effectivity, and of the reader's competence to "get it". Er does not seem to care if anyone "gets it". Hers is a different mission. Nature speaks for itself - Er just writes what she hears.
Monday, April 4, 2011
darwish
I poured my morning coffee and sat down to start reading Darwish. I ended up spending my entire morning with him and reading his book cover to cover. Darwish was a pacifist, an ambassador speaking out from the violence riddled cradle of humanity. In "A metaphor" on page 54, he captured the delicate balance of the universe, the cosmos, the necessity of coexistence, and the necessity, difficulty, and precariousness with which man must maintain his place within. "We will become a people when..." he promises his reader on page 54, when we learn to undo centuries of inclination and view our fellow humans as something other than enemies.
He is attractive, sexually even, because of his contemplative sensuality. Life, to him, is an illusion, a perception at best. But humans share, across space and time, experiences and consequent desires and philosophies. This is where I find Darwish most appealing. There is something universal about Darwish, something that simultaneously evokes and satisfies the primal. His writing is woven with props, if you will, from his own world that remind the West that if we were to live slower that life might be richer. Amidst the clutter of conflict is where the beauty of simplicity shines most brightly.
Darwish makes me lament the East and the past. My only regret is that I cannot understand Arabic, because I'm sure that much is lost in translation.
He is attractive, sexually even, because of his contemplative sensuality. Life, to him, is an illusion, a perception at best. But humans share, across space and time, experiences and consequent desires and philosophies. This is where I find Darwish most appealing. There is something universal about Darwish, something that simultaneously evokes and satisfies the primal. His writing is woven with props, if you will, from his own world that remind the West that if we were to live slower that life might be richer. Amidst the clutter of conflict is where the beauty of simplicity shines most brightly.
Darwish makes me lament the East and the past. My only regret is that I cannot understand Arabic, because I'm sure that much is lost in translation.
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Aaron
If I could steal anything from Aaron Shurin it would be his perspective because it, and only it, makes his, ahem, flowery language, work. Music strikes again and I have to refer to a song quote to explain what I mean. "You've got a lovely way with words - it's just the way you see the world." Aaron is a poet for sure. I feel this effortlessness in his language choices. He is obviously well read - I picked up on little waves and nods to Plato, Edward Abbey, Foucault, and, of course, Shakespeare - which helps, of course. But there's this intrinsic writerly quality about him that, I think, he acknowledges, and embraces, in "The Dancers". Performance is the heart of performing. Those whose art we love, love to make art - whatever the medium. Brian Wilson wrote "God Only Knows" about music. A love song to his form.
In sharing vivid memories and anecdotes, Shurin becomes a philosophical spokesman for "the" counterculture. He seems to have found a home and a family along the margins and his adventurous streak could lead him to no better place than the other side of the proverbial margin. His surrealism, his transcendent moments, feel more honest and organic than many memoirs and biographies that remain firmly planted in reality. I wanted to be reincarnated as Aaron Shurin.
In sharing vivid memories and anecdotes, Shurin becomes a philosophical spokesman for "the" counterculture. He seems to have found a home and a family along the margins and his adventurous streak could lead him to no better place than the other side of the proverbial margin. His surrealism, his transcendent moments, feel more honest and organic than many memoirs and biographies that remain firmly planted in reality. I wanted to be reincarnated as Aaron Shurin.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Response to "the Writing Life"
I chuckled as I read the reviews on the back of my copy of The Writing Life, particularly the one comparing it to the Tao Te Ching. Littered with anecdotes and proverbs that apply not only to writing, but to life, I thought Dillard's work might deserve an alternate title - Chicken Soup for the Writer's Soul.
"Consider your reader" is my personal mantra and, bound by my own perspective, one with which I sometimes struggle. Dillard takes this one step further - reminding the writer of the reader by asking "why are we reading?" (72). The writers' series only reinforced my idea - the only tie that binds writers is writing itself. Writing is a compulsion. The who, what, why, when, where, and how, regarding both reading and writing, are various, to say the least. Writing is difficult - maybe even masochistic. But the reward - the finished work - the opportunity to speak to others - is one that keeps us working. A reader may derive his or her own meaning. This is art.
My favorite part of The Writing Life, hands down, was the story of the swallow, compelled by David Rahm's skyshow. The swallow, uninhibited, was moved to create his own show. He had to act. On page 78 Dillard advises her fellow writers to simply produce - to make the internal external, regardless of time, organization, or any other inhibiting factor. You can always reassemble the puzzle, but you must, like the swallow, just create. Disorder is part of the process and it can be beautiful.
"If Rahm knew how he felt he could not have done the work" (119). This is my new mantra.
"Consider your reader" is my personal mantra and, bound by my own perspective, one with which I sometimes struggle. Dillard takes this one step further - reminding the writer of the reader by asking "why are we reading?" (72). The writers' series only reinforced my idea - the only tie that binds writers is writing itself. Writing is a compulsion. The who, what, why, when, where, and how, regarding both reading and writing, are various, to say the least. Writing is difficult - maybe even masochistic. But the reward - the finished work - the opportunity to speak to others - is one that keeps us working. A reader may derive his or her own meaning. This is art.
My favorite part of The Writing Life, hands down, was the story of the swallow, compelled by David Rahm's skyshow. The swallow, uninhibited, was moved to create his own show. He had to act. On page 78 Dillard advises her fellow writers to simply produce - to make the internal external, regardless of time, organization, or any other inhibiting factor. You can always reassemble the puzzle, but you must, like the swallow, just create. Disorder is part of the process and it can be beautiful.
"If Rahm knew how he felt he could not have done the work" (119). This is my new mantra.
Friday, February 25, 2011
Writers' Writers
Last night was inspirational and in perfect conjunction with Annie Dillard's "The Writing Life". I love hearing people read their own work. But the best part, for me, was the Q and A.
I'm intrigued by process and the array of conditions under which art can produced. I've always admired artists who can work outside or in a busy cafe. They look alert. Groomed. When I work, either drawing or writing, I'm usually pajama clad, armed with a coffee cup in one hand, and perched precariously on the edge of my seat. I like to stretch out the morning and inhabit a world that is only mine. Nighttime sneaks up on me and I regretfully bid adieu to my project. It's like puppy love in a way - the desire, desperation really, to come back to it as soon as possible. Brian Wilson wrote "God Only Knows" about music. When I learned this fun fact, I felt immediately kindred.
I had this art professor once who realized how lucky he was to love his work. He admitted to our class that he felt like he'd been getting away with something for twenty years. That's the thing about creative careers. Even the most tortured or unrecognized artist emits this thing, this indescribable thing. They're doing something right and something instinctual, even primal, is satisfied.
Maybe it's an ability to listen to the self. Art, to me, is something created by a human. That's as far as my definition goes. Sometimes it is functional. Sometimes it's edible. Sometimes it is merely conceptual. People, understandably distracted by life, ignore the voices of their bodies, emotions, and instincts. It's as though they speak in a language we, as a species, have forgotten. Writing, art, carpentry, whatever your craft, is a calling. All of the writers seemed to allude to that last night. It just is. For those who can decipher or remember, this compulsion to create is like a physiological need. It might work, it might not. Just keep working.
I'm intrigued by process and the array of conditions under which art can produced. I've always admired artists who can work outside or in a busy cafe. They look alert. Groomed. When I work, either drawing or writing, I'm usually pajama clad, armed with a coffee cup in one hand, and perched precariously on the edge of my seat. I like to stretch out the morning and inhabit a world that is only mine. Nighttime sneaks up on me and I regretfully bid adieu to my project. It's like puppy love in a way - the desire, desperation really, to come back to it as soon as possible. Brian Wilson wrote "God Only Knows" about music. When I learned this fun fact, I felt immediately kindred.
I had this art professor once who realized how lucky he was to love his work. He admitted to our class that he felt like he'd been getting away with something for twenty years. That's the thing about creative careers. Even the most tortured or unrecognized artist emits this thing, this indescribable thing. They're doing something right and something instinctual, even primal, is satisfied.
Maybe it's an ability to listen to the self. Art, to me, is something created by a human. That's as far as my definition goes. Sometimes it is functional. Sometimes it's edible. Sometimes it is merely conceptual. People, understandably distracted by life, ignore the voices of their bodies, emotions, and instincts. It's as though they speak in a language we, as a species, have forgotten. Writing, art, carpentry, whatever your craft, is a calling. All of the writers seemed to allude to that last night. It just is. For those who can decipher or remember, this compulsion to create is like a physiological need. It might work, it might not. Just keep working.
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
Response to the Mixquiahala Letters
The epistolary style of "The Mixquiahala Letters" does not merely defy linearity, it exposes the impossibility of the proverbial whole story. Alicia and Teresa's letters are bits and pieces of a larger whole. Their relationship, like any, is a process. It evolves. It regresses.
Castillo's character development and representation is nothing short of spectacular. This book is a time capsule between two presumably fictional characters. While each volunteers glimpses from within, the reader becomes better acquainted with one via the other. We are reminded that everything is interpretation. Castillo masterfully assembled the fragments upon which either character might have fixated, and, in turn, the bits and pieces that make up a whole person.
I was tempted, and encouraged by one friend whose input I solicited, to take the cynics route. Having decried Lorrie Moore's accessibility, and given that Castillo posed so many options, it was a surprisingly un-difficult decision to do the average bear thing and read this book front to back like any other Westerner. Call it the easy way. Call it a manifestation of the creature of habit - of doing things the way I know how to do them. This is the way that I chose. This time. I will most certainly revisit this novel in all of its intended incarnations.
Castillo's character development and representation is nothing short of spectacular. This book is a time capsule between two presumably fictional characters. While each volunteers glimpses from within, the reader becomes better acquainted with one via the other. We are reminded that everything is interpretation. Castillo masterfully assembled the fragments upon which either character might have fixated, and, in turn, the bits and pieces that make up a whole person.
As these women divulge their interpretations, the reader, this one anyway, is left with the fear that she will miss something. Names and dates and times are not the ethos of this novel, but they are the keys to it. Connections and conclusions exist. But Castillo does not just set them out for the taking. Her novel is impressionistic - a hodgepodge of moments and memories that form a collective narrative. But not too perfectly. The reader is convinced that the delicate selection is more a result of the clarity that comes with hindsight than an author's contrivance.
I was tempted, and encouraged by one friend whose input I solicited, to take the cynics route. Having decried Lorrie Moore's accessibility, and given that Castillo posed so many options, it was a surprisingly un-difficult decision to do the average bear thing and read this book front to back like any other Westerner. Call it the easy way. Call it a manifestation of the creature of habit - of doing things the way I know how to do them. This is the way that I chose. This time. I will most certainly revisit this novel in all of its intended incarnations.
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Stretching A 6 Word Story
"Harry Potter. The end is near."
"Cut!"
"Come on, dude! What now?"
"Aside from it being ridiculous, isn't that the tagline? You wanna get sued?"
"You think that's gonna get us sued?" Gary is making that face - that "you're so stupid it appalls me" face.
Mike, resists his urge to slap it. "We are breaking a major story here. Try to be a professional."
"It's called color, man. News writing 101. But hey," Gary's palms wave in mock retreat, "if you think you can do a better job you're more than welcome to step out from behind the camera."
"Yeah sure, you should be able to operate this thing no problem. It doesn't take any skill or anything."
"Exactly, man." Gary nods. "You do your job and I'll do mine."
"Action!" Mike chuckles when the aim marks appear, targeting Gary's face. It never gets old.
"Things are getting a bit, ahem, hairy, for some of the 'Harry Potter' cast. We've got exclusive footage of some pretty steamy -"
"Cut!" Mike is agitated now. "I'm sorry, I just can't deal with the 'hairy' thing. It's just not funny, dude."
"That's it! I've had it!" Gary's shrill voice causes the microphone to squeal in agony. He storms toward the door.
"Where are you going?" Mike is struck with sincere panic. They've got to break this story. "Are you serious? Dude, we'll be famous. We'll be guaranteed jobs."
"I'm taking five - getting a coke." Gary doesn't look back, but his palm is raised a la The Supremes.
Mike paces the room, nibbling on his thumbnail. Thirty seven takes. "What's with this guy?" He checks the time on his phone and realizes he's not going to catch the bus. He dials his little sister, sadly the only female whose number he knows by heart. She got dibs on Mom's Corolla when it was "time to get something a little more fun," and, in turn, indentured servitude to Mike's transportation needs. Fair is fair, after all.
"Maria!"
"Whassup bro?" Mike hated the influence all the hip-hop was having on Maria's diction.
Choose your battles. "Hey, I need you to pick me up at the studio in about an hour."
"No dice my brotha. I have a date."
"A date?" Who was this girl? What happened to Maria, his brace faced, pajama clad, popcorn hoarding, videot of a sister?
"Well, you'll have to bring your date to get me then. I'm stuck. Come on."
"Hold on I have a beep." Before Mike has a chance to respond Maria has already clicked over to the other caller. Where the hell is Gary he wonders, looking upward at nothing in particular.
"-ike!" Maria is frantic. "Ohmygod!There'saHarryPottersextapeonyoutube.Ihavetogowatchiti'llcallyouback!"
Click. Mike stands perfectly still, the phone still raised to his ear, his jaw hanging open. The dial tone hums in his ear. Still, he cannot move.
"Cut!"
"Come on, dude! What now?"
"Aside from it being ridiculous, isn't that the tagline? You wanna get sued?"
"You think that's gonna get us sued?" Gary is making that face - that "you're so stupid it appalls me" face.
Mike, resists his urge to slap it. "We are breaking a major story here. Try to be a professional."
"It's called color, man. News writing 101. But hey," Gary's palms wave in mock retreat, "if you think you can do a better job you're more than welcome to step out from behind the camera."
"Yeah sure, you should be able to operate this thing no problem. It doesn't take any skill or anything."
"Exactly, man." Gary nods. "You do your job and I'll do mine."
"Action!" Mike chuckles when the aim marks appear, targeting Gary's face. It never gets old.
"Things are getting a bit, ahem, hairy, for some of the 'Harry Potter' cast. We've got exclusive footage of some pretty steamy -"
"Cut!" Mike is agitated now. "I'm sorry, I just can't deal with the 'hairy' thing. It's just not funny, dude."
"That's it! I've had it!" Gary's shrill voice causes the microphone to squeal in agony. He storms toward the door.
"Where are you going?" Mike is struck with sincere panic. They've got to break this story. "Are you serious? Dude, we'll be famous. We'll be guaranteed jobs."
"I'm taking five - getting a coke." Gary doesn't look back, but his palm is raised a la The Supremes.
Mike paces the room, nibbling on his thumbnail. Thirty seven takes. "What's with this guy?" He checks the time on his phone and realizes he's not going to catch the bus. He dials his little sister, sadly the only female whose number he knows by heart. She got dibs on Mom's Corolla when it was "time to get something a little more fun," and, in turn, indentured servitude to Mike's transportation needs. Fair is fair, after all.
"Maria!"
"Whassup bro?" Mike hated the influence all the hip-hop was having on Maria's diction.
Choose your battles. "Hey, I need you to pick me up at the studio in about an hour."
"No dice my brotha. I have a date."
"A date?" Who was this girl? What happened to Maria, his brace faced, pajama clad, popcorn hoarding, videot of a sister?
"Well, you'll have to bring your date to get me then. I'm stuck. Come on."
"Hold on I have a beep." Before Mike has a chance to respond Maria has already clicked over to the other caller. Where the hell is Gary he wonders, looking upward at nothing in particular.
"-ike!" Maria is frantic. "Ohmygod!There'saHarryPottersextapeonyoutube.Ihavetogowatchiti'llcallyouback!"
Click. Mike stands perfectly still, the phone still raised to his ear, his jaw hanging open. The dial tone hums in his ear. Still, he cannot move.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Snapshot - New Hampshire - 1985
I wish I still owned that jacket! Just last year I painted my bedroom that same shade of purple. "Cupid's Arrow", the paint salesman called it. When I was four, I used to spend what felt like forever trying to get that color right in my self portraits. Attention to details, the strangest of details. Whoops, too much red. Now I need more blue. Once, I accidentally took a huge swig of the purple water, confusing it with my grape Kool-Aid.
My Dad used to bring home these huge rolls of teletype paper. I'd fill them up with drawings and paintings of everything I saw, and everyone I knew. I'd have to ask for help when it was time to roll them back up so I could use the other side. They were so heavy.
"Haha, I look like a puptent," Ms. Nichols, my preschool teacher gasped when I gave her a portrait. I was not yet critical of my art or self. And, being four, I wasn't really sure about the definition of puptent. I would beam with innocent pride when Gramma would immediately have to show Auntie Doris my rendition of her hair. "Look at her muumuu," my uncles would point out to my Mum. "She wore that one to Kevin's birthday party last Sunday! Remember?" Yes - Gramma wore muumuus then - I loved them and I gave them the kind of attention you're supposed to give to something you love. I was excited when Gramma assured me that, one day, I would inherit them. Now I don't want them. I just want her to be around.
My Dad used to bring home these huge rolls of teletype paper. I'd fill them up with drawings and paintings of everything I saw, and everyone I knew. I'd have to ask for help when it was time to roll them back up so I could use the other side. They were so heavy.
"Haha, I look like a puptent," Ms. Nichols, my preschool teacher gasped when I gave her a portrait. I was not yet critical of my art or self. And, being four, I wasn't really sure about the definition of puptent. I would beam with innocent pride when Gramma would immediately have to show Auntie Doris my rendition of her hair. "Look at her muumuu," my uncles would point out to my Mum. "She wore that one to Kevin's birthday party last Sunday! Remember?" Yes - Gramma wore muumuus then - I loved them and I gave them the kind of attention you're supposed to give to something you love. I was excited when Gramma assured me that, one day, I would inherit them. Now I don't want them. I just want her to be around.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Birds of America
Lorrie Moore is a risk taker for sure. I was surprised that "Willing" was her, or her editor's choice as the first story. I don't have to tell you what "they" say about first impressions, only that mine was, "I have to read how many pages of this? This is for people who like movies starring Sandra Bullock, Jennifer Aniston, and that adaptation of that memoir that was so overrated starring Julia Roberts. Not my bag, baby." Cliches abound.
By the end, however, I warmed up to some of Moore's characters - and even liked some of them. The nameless mother, for example, who sang The Animals' song "We Gotta Get Out of This Place" to her hospitalized baby son in "People Like That Are the Only People Here", the meta-narrative of her battle with his cancer, struck me. The ending, too, felt more honest. "There are the notes. Now where is the money?"
So how did Moore persevere? I think it's because she was shameless, in some instances. Perhaps I am biased or hyper-aware, but I saw the crazy cat lady (I am one myself) embodied in some of Moore's characters. Bert and the "flourescent voodoo" to which he was subjected in "Four Calling Birds Three French Hens" made me cry, recalling memories of lost pets and already scared to death one of one day bidding adieu to my little Tarragon, only one and a half years old.
Jack Kerouac, in "The Town and the City" claimed that each character was just another facet of himself. One of my friends once asked me to try to explain obsession - why it happened when it happened. The immediacy of my own response surprised me. "Identification." If you sense common ground, even with a total stranger, then strange connection occurs. Resist as I might have wanted to at "Willing", I kinda like Lorrie Moore.
By the end, however, I warmed up to some of Moore's characters - and even liked some of them. The nameless mother, for example, who sang The Animals' song "We Gotta Get Out of This Place" to her hospitalized baby son in "People Like That Are the Only People Here", the meta-narrative of her battle with his cancer, struck me. The ending, too, felt more honest. "There are the notes. Now where is the money?"
So how did Moore persevere? I think it's because she was shameless, in some instances. Perhaps I am biased or hyper-aware, but I saw the crazy cat lady (I am one myself) embodied in some of Moore's characters. Bert and the "flourescent voodoo" to which he was subjected in "Four Calling Birds Three French Hens" made me cry, recalling memories of lost pets and already scared to death one of one day bidding adieu to my little Tarragon, only one and a half years old.
Jack Kerouac, in "The Town and the City" claimed that each character was just another facet of himself. One of my friends once asked me to try to explain obsession - why it happened when it happened. The immediacy of my own response surprised me. "Identification." If you sense common ground, even with a total stranger, then strange connection occurs. Resist as I might have wanted to at "Willing", I kinda like Lorrie Moore.
Monday, January 31, 2011
"A Great Ex-Wife" inspired by "The Widow"
Matthew thumbs, all thumbs, through his reporter's notebook, taking care not to slice his palm, again, on the stray piece of wire that has come unspiraled. "I can't believe I got through." His face is a little thin but potentially handsome.
"Yello!"
"Yello? You've gotta be kidding me," he thinks which is how "hello" came out as he hoped it would. He sounded like a man - not at all like himself. "You should take up smoking," his grandfather used to tease, "maybe then you'll get a date." Bastard. "Richer than the Rockerfellers and I'm still delivering pizzas to pay off my student loans." Matthew felt a little guilty, of course, for proclaiming "poetic justice" at his wake. Frankly, though, he just never really liked the guy. And couldn't these people take a joke? Hell, the man worked for R.J. Reynold's for forty two years and headed the research team that first generated tetrahydrapoisonisprofit, hands down, the most addictive chemical added to American tobacco products. His mother gave a red faced apology at the funeral, with the explanation that Matthew's liberal arts college up north "certainly seem(ed) to be helping with his self-esteem."
"This is Commander Johnson." It sounds a little impatient.
"I'm sorry, sir. This is Matthew Jackson from the University Times. We're running a story on The Darwin Missions and I was hoping to get a few words from you on the matter."
"Oh," Johnson sounds startled.
"Sir, do you maintain that you were unaware of the project?" Matthew cringes. Too much. You sound like a game show announcer. Tell him what he's won!
"Yes, entirely." From hesitation to hurry.
"But you have a seat on the shuttle Apocellipse? How can this be?"
"I've been advised not to comment until-"
"Sir, with all due respect, you're not likely to go to trial. You'll be long gone. Hell, you'll be sipping mint juleps with the Supreme Court Justice." Whoa. Ballsy.
Commander Johnson, "call me Dick," rolls his eyes back into his skull and slumps forehead first onto his desk in a hammy attempt at narcilepsy. Darlene, his third wife, charges to his rescue, cradling his neck, her fingers savoring his head of white, but still very full, close cropped hair, smothering his face into "the best fifteen thousand" Dick ever spent.
"Exactly, so why are you working?" Dick muses. "Get a life." In poor taste, but funny. "Ha." "Ha ha." Darlene is bending down now to pick up the mint she's, "whoopsy," accidentally dropped, grinning under the wrongful assumption that Dick is laughing at her little charade. "Make him laugh, everyday" was rule one of Sandra Bullock's blog entitled "How to Be A Kept Wife." Sandra's a Southern belle, just like her. Her eyes smile as she dances her way over so that Dick can lightly slap her behind. "And you have proof that these photos on this wackyleaks are legitimate?"
"Sir,". Wow, was this finally puberty? "You have sixteen witnesses claiming to have performed contracted labor on the planet Mars." And, apparently, the New York Times got a call from a Russian fellow today with some pretty interesting-" Matthew wishes he could bottle this confidence
Johnson only catches bits and pieces of Jackson's accusation that the space race was a cover up. He's heard it all before though, "the Russians were really in bed with America - and the Germans too - cultivating an earth like habitat on the planet Mars - an apocalyptic escape for the elite... blah blah blah." He clicks the mouse and the next image, "Neo-Monaco" was the working name for the project, evokes memories of Judy. Oh boy. Judy was like the perfect child of Dagny Taggart and Scarlet O'Hara as far as Dick was concerned. Oh, boy. Hands down the most perfectly polarized day of his life. "The mile high club is for amateurs," they joked over a shared Lucky Strike. Johnson kissed "all three of my girls" goodbye before he pulled the blanket up and left her, beaming, to get some specs and signatures before the next day's launch. So what the hell was she thinking? Smoking next to a hydrogen tank? Johnson could only assume that she was a kamikaze of sorts, on a suicide mission to sabotage the second launch. There must have been a leak. "It's a shame," he chuckles. "She would have made a great ex-wife."
"...blown to bits down here while you're up there with the rest of the blue bloods..."
Darlene, a skilled bartender, flings a cloth coaster onto Dick's mahogany desk and sets a mint julep with crushed ice, "always crushed ice," onto the coaster in one quick movement. Dick lowers the phone, covers the receiver, and cranes his neck toward Darlene. "Baby," he says, "you're the bees knees."
Friday, January 21, 2011
Kristilyn 101
There are photos and audio recordings commemorating my first creative moment. That's what Grammas are for. I took my Grampa's newspaper from the kitchen table, opened it up in the middle of the living room floor, and plopped my still diapered bum on top of it. I ran my finger along the lines of print, babbling and nodding with my eyebrows raised, authoritatively recounting some sort of fantastical, fictional piece of news.
I was precocious to say the least. In reviewing my rapid fire answers to "Your Creative Autobigoraphy" I realize that some of my best creative acts and moments have been uninhibited and sometimes unsafe. When I decided, for example, that it was time to graduate from big wheel to bicycle, I simply asked my neighborhood playmate if I could try his out. Imagine being my Dad, hearing me screaming frantically for him to "hurry" and rushing out the front door all sorts of worried about what kind of terrible injury I must have suffered this time, only to find me speeding around the cul-de-sac on two wheels. I just do things. Sometimes the results are favorable. Sometimes, not so much.
If gusto and vigor are my superpowers, then inhibition is my self imposed kryptonite. I have to remind myself that nobody analyzes and scrutinizes me as much as, well, me. "I say there's trouble when everything is fine," is a line from my all time favorite musician. "The need to destroy things creeps up on me every time." All of my favorite artists, as varied as they are, share intrapersonal intelligence and some apparently comfortable skin. I'm still growing into mine. Many women will agree that what is comfortable one day is anything but on another. "I'm a work in progress," another of my favorites has claimed. Staying out of my own way is a craft I'm cultivating as I go.
-K
I was precocious to say the least. In reviewing my rapid fire answers to "Your Creative Autobigoraphy" I realize that some of my best creative acts and moments have been uninhibited and sometimes unsafe. When I decided, for example, that it was time to graduate from big wheel to bicycle, I simply asked my neighborhood playmate if I could try his out. Imagine being my Dad, hearing me screaming frantically for him to "hurry" and rushing out the front door all sorts of worried about what kind of terrible injury I must have suffered this time, only to find me speeding around the cul-de-sac on two wheels. I just do things. Sometimes the results are favorable. Sometimes, not so much.
If gusto and vigor are my superpowers, then inhibition is my self imposed kryptonite. I have to remind myself that nobody analyzes and scrutinizes me as much as, well, me. "I say there's trouble when everything is fine," is a line from my all time favorite musician. "The need to destroy things creeps up on me every time." All of my favorite artists, as varied as they are, share intrapersonal intelligence and some apparently comfortable skin. I'm still growing into mine. Many women will agree that what is comfortable one day is anything but on another. "I'm a work in progress," another of my favorites has claimed. Staying out of my own way is a craft I'm cultivating as I go.
-K
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